A Prayer Journal

by Flannery O'Conner "I would like to write a beautiful prayer," writes the young Flannery O'Connor in this deeply spiritual journal, recently discovered among her papers in Georgia.  "There is a whole sensible world around me that I should be able to turn to Your praise."  Written between 1946 and 1947 while O'Connor was a student far from home at the University of Iowa, "A Prayer Journal " is a rare portal into the interior life of the great writer.  Not only does it map O'Connor's singular relationship with the divine, but it shows how entwined her literary desire was with her yearning for God.  "I must write down that I am to be an artist.  Not in the sense of aesthetic frippery but in the sense of aesthetic craftsmanship; otherwise I will feel my loneliness continually . . . I do not want to be lonely all my life but people only make us lonelier by reminding us of God.  Dear God please help me to be an artist, please let it lead to You." O'Connor could not be more plain about her literary ambition: "Please help me dear God to be a good writer and to get something else accepted," she writes. Yet she struggles with any trace of self-regard: "Don't let me ever think, dear God, that I was anything but the instrument for Your story." As W. A. Sessions, who knew O'Connor, writes in his introduction, it was no coincidence that she began writing the stories that would become her first novel, "Wise Blood," during the years when she wrote these singularly imaginative meditations.  Including a facsimile of the entire journal in O'Connor's own hand, "A Prayer""Journal "is the record of a brilliant young woman's coming-of-age, a cry from the heart for love, grace, and art.